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Dallas-based singer-songwriter Kevin Hawkins had an emotional transformation that started well before the pandemic. Over the course of five years, he wrote and recorded his debut album Mixed Emotions, which was released last fall. Through the 15 tracks, the musician walks through his past and makes sense of his old relationships.
Hawkins’ musical journey began when he was only two years old, by singing at his grandfather’s church. When he reached middle school, he picked up the trumpet, piano and organ.
Hawkins enrolled at the University of North Texas in fall of 2012, where he studied vocal performance and music education. In 2014, however, he had to leave UNT to recover from a medical procedure. Hawkins started writing and recording music, but finding his niche took time. He didn’t want to release songs that didn’t accurately reflect his experience.
“I didn’t feel comfortable putting out music until I actually went through something, because I wanted all of my songs to be relatable,” Hawkins says. “I really had something to talk about when I went through a tumultuous relationship. At the time, I had fallen into a depression and I stopped actually recording music for a minute. And then I had to get back to it.”
Hawkins wrote Mixed Emotions “on and off” between the ages of 20 and 25. His song “Situationship” was inspired by an old flame, and Hawkins defines the term as “more than friends with benefits, but less than relationships.”
“At the time, I was pretty much going back and forth with someone,” Hawkins says. “I wanted more. I felt like we could’ve had more, but it wasn’t getting there. So I had to leave the situation and move on. Situationships hurt just like relationships, but you have to have the…